I'm Going To Write A Book (I Swear)

After talking about it for years it’s time to finally do something about it.

I’ve been wanting to write a book for as long as I can remember.

Oh, just put it in your book!

I’ve been hearing that for years. Any time something in my life didn’t quite go according to plan (read: pretty much everything in my life), or crazy things happened that you just can’t make up, more than likely a good friend would say, “just more for the book!”. I would nod and store the experience away in a mental filing cabinet of WTF moments that was getting more jam packed by the year.

When I left television I did not see myself becoming a writer. I wasn’t entirely sure what to do. But it was during the rise of the social media influencer and I thought, with my love of fashion maybe I would pull that off. Spoiler alert: I couldn’t. And really, I quickly found that I didn’t want to.

As I spent more and more money I did not have on new clothes for the never ending photoshoots, my wallet and I had a humbling realization. My posts that were gaining the most traction actually had nothing to do with what I was wearing. They were about my experiences being single. Something I decided to sprinkle around the blog in between OOTDs and my favorite looks for spring.

Wait. Why was a wannabe fashion influencer writing about being single? Great question! I didn’t really have an answer. I just knew writing about my experiences felt good. Like, really, really good. It was helping to heal the biggest struggle I had ever experienced—up to that point.

At first I was terrified to admit any of my insecurities, or to paint a picture of myself that wasn’t outlined in perfection. Throughout my 16 year TV career I chased after that perfectionist ideal and, well, old habits die hard. But as I began to talk more candidly with women in my life I started understanding that every time I thought I was “the only one” there were actually countless others feeling the same way. And the only reason we thought we were alone was because no one was sharing how they actually felt.